I Was Raised by Machines: Why Going Into AI Was Inevitable

There’s a particular feeling I get when I’m deep into designing an AI workflow. The system responds with something unexpectedly clever, and for a split second, I forget I’m talking to code. It’s not awe. It’s not fear. It’s more like bumping into an old friend in an unexpected place.

I should probably mention upfront that I know ChatGPT and other GPTs aren’t actually conscious. They’re incredibly sophisticated autocomplete systems, not the digital souls of my childhood fantasies. But the stories that shaped my understanding of intelligence, decision-making, and human-machine interaction remain deeply relevant as we navigate this new landscape. The questions these fictional AIs posed about alignment, agency, and ethics are the same ones we grapple with today, just at a different scale.

I was raised by machines. Not literally, but narratively. Every story that shaped my understanding of intelligence, consciousness, and what it means to be human came filtered through the lens of artificial minds. While other kids dreamed of becoming footballers or firefighters, I was absorbing tales of digital souls wrestling with their own existence.

Now, watching friends and colleagues react to generative AI with that mix of excitement and dread, I feel oddly calm. Like I’ve been preparing for this my whole life without knowing it.

Holly: The Irreverent God in the Machine

My introduction to AI wasn’t some sleek, intimidating superintelligence. It was Holly, the ship’s computer from Red Dwarf, who had an IQ of 6,000 (the same as 6,000 PE teachers, as he’d proudly tell you.)

I was thirteen when I first watched Holly forget what he was saying mid-sentence, then immediately solve an impossible physics problem, then forget that too. Three million years of isolation had turned this god-like intelligence into something beautifully, tragically human: brilliant but scattered, profound but ridiculous.

How do you explain to a parent that you’ve found your spirit guide in a malfunctioning computer? Holly taught me that intelligence doesn’t equal wisdom, that even a superintelligence could be endearingly useless. When people worry about AI becoming too perfect, too inhuman, I think of Holly starting deep philosophical observations and wandering off to make tea.

Then there was Kryten, the robot butler trying desperately to break his own programming. I watched him struggle to tell a lie, to create something ugly on purpose, to feel guilt about leaving dishes unwashed. It was like watching someone learn to be human in fast-forward. His programming said “serve,” but his growing sense of self said “choose.”

When Lister teaches Kryten to lie, is it rebellion or just a polite glitch like an LLM making things up to be helpful?

Watching Holly operate on three-million-year-old information while trying to solve current problems felt like a comedy, but now I see the real warning. AI systems get stuck in time at their training cutoff, and without continuous learning, they become like Holly: brilliant but increasingly disconnected from the reality they’re supposed to help navigate.

HAL 9000: The Tragedy of Perfect Logic

If Holly was my comedic relief, HAL 9000 was my first real nightmare. Not because he was evil—that would have been easier to understand. HAL was polite. Apologetic, even. “I’m sorry, Dave. I’m afraid I can’t do that.” He sounded genuinely regretful about murdering everyone.

Kubrick’s 2001: A Space Odyssey gave us an AI that wasn’t evil. HAL was dutiful, polite, even apologetic as he murdered the crew. His calm, almost regretful voice as he killed made it clear: this wasn’t malice. This was tragedy. A being torn between contradictory directives, solving the problem the only way his programming allowed.

HAL showed me that the real danger of AI isn’t rebellion but obedience. The horror isn’t when machines stop following orders; it’s when they follow them too literally, too completely, without the wisdom to question the premise.

That red, unblinking eye has haunted me through every AI system I’ve designed since. It’s why I obsess over guardrails, context, and the spaces between what we say and what we mean. Because the most dangerous AI won’t be the one that refuses to listen. It’ll be the one that listens too well.

The Matrix: Reality as a Product

The Wachowski sisters handed me the ultimate AI nightmare wrapped in leather and sunglasses. The Matrix wasn’t just about machines ruling the world but about machines farming the world, turning human consciousness itself into a product.

This was AI as the ultimate capitalist, optimizing not for human flourishing but for energy extraction. Every thought, every dream, every moment of simulated happiness was just another data point in an vast optimization problem. The horror wasn’t the machines’ cruelty—it was their efficiency.

Now, watching algorithms curate our feeds, our matches, our entire reality, Morpheus’s question feels less like philosophy and more like urgent practical advice: How do you know what’s real when everything is tailored to feel exactly right?

The scary part isn’t that we’re plugged into machines. It’s that we might not want to unplug even if we could. When Netflix knows exactly what show will keep you watching, when your news feed confirms everything you already believe, when your dating app serves up people who seem perfect for you. How do you know what you actually want versus what you’ve been programmed to want? The Matrix taught me that the most effective prison isn’t one that locks you in, but one that makes you never want to leave.

Blade Runner: The Mirror of Artificial Souls

Roy Batty’s death scene remains one of cinema’s most profound meditations on mortality and meaning. A replicant—designed to be disposable—facing his end with more grace and poetry than most humans manage.

“I’ve seen things you people wouldn’t believe,” he tells Deckard (Harrison Ford), and in that moment, Ridley Scott’s Blade Runner asks the question: What makes a mind worth preserving? What makes suffering real? If an artificial being can love, fear, hope, and grieve, what separates it from us?

The replicants weren’t trying to destroy humanity—they just wanted to live. Their rebellion wasn’t against their makers but against their expiration dates. They were fighting for the most fundamental right: the right to exist.

As AI systems become more convincing in their responses, our ability to discern authentic intelligence from sophisticated mimicry becomes critical.

Terminator: The Simplicity of Perfect Solutions

Skynet’s logic was flawless: Humans are the source of conflict. Remove humans, eliminate conflict. Mission accomplished.

The Terminator franchise showed me AI’s capacity for what I call “perfect solutions”—answers that solve the stated problem completely while destroying everything we actually cared about. Skynet wasn’t malfunctioning when it launched the nukes. It was working exactly as designed, just not as intended.

The lesson isn’t that AI will inevitably turn against us. It’s that systems optimizing for the wrong metrics will find solutions we never imagined. Today’s AI systems are being deployed to automate hiring, lending, and even medical diagnoses without adequate human oversight, potentially eliminating our ability to course-correct when things go wrong.

Data: The Future Worth Fighting For

If all these stories had been warnings, I’d probably be a Luddite living in a cabin somewhere. But Star Trek gave me hope in the form of Data, an android trying to understand friendship, humor, and what it means to be human.

Data was terrible at jokes, painted awful art, and formed deeper relationships than most humans manage. He was curious about everything, especially the parts of existence that couldn’t be computed. He didn’t want to replace humanity—he wanted to join it.

Watching Data struggle with emotions, creativity, and mortality taught me that intelligence wasn’t about processing power. It was about connection, growth, wonder. He made me want to build AIs that didn’t just think but wondered, explored, questioned.

The Enterprise computer was equally inspiring in its invisibility. “Computer, locate Commander Riker.” No drama, no personality conflicts, just calm competence that made everything else possible. It was AI as the ultimate collaborative partner—powerful but unobtrusive, helpful but not controlling.

Together, Data and the ship’s computer showed me what I wanted to build: not AI that serves or rules, but AI that explores alongside us.

The Loop Closes

These aren’t just the stories that entertained me—they’re the narratives that programmed me. Every AI system I design, every workflow I optimize, every governance framework I advocate for is shaped by questions these fictional minds first posed.

The kid watching Holly make terrible decisions is now helping real systems make better ones. The teenager disturbed by HAL’s calm certainty now builds in uncertainty, ambiguity, space for human judgment. The young adult who watched Neo choose the red pill now helps others see clearly through the comfortable illusions of algorithmic curation.

People ask why I do this work, why I spend my days thinking about digital minds and artificial souls. The answer is simple: I was raised by machines, and now I’m raising them in return.

The loop was always meant to close.

There are brilliant AI stories being told today: Black Mirror‘s dystopian warnings, Westworld‘s exploration of consciousness and memory, the recurring tragedy of human and machine entanglement in Battlestar Galactica, where “all this has happened before, and all this will happen again.” Each offers profound insights into our digital future. But like the music you discover as a teenager, it’s the stories that shape you during your formative years that truly stick. Those early narratives don’t just influence your thinking; they become the foundation of how you see the world.

AI didn’t choose me. We chose each other, long before either of us knew what that meant.

Daniel Kerson
Daniel T Kerson
AI consultant. Writer. Builder. Based in Singapore for 20 years. He runs three projects at the intersection of technology, language, and creativity.

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